When I Lift Up Hand, God Lays Hand

On December 30th 2005 one of my soft lenses was gone when I took it off. Meanwhile on the night of the 31st I had to serve with tambourine for the Closing Year in church. Therefore, in the afternoon of the 31st I had to buy new lens.
After being checked, I was given soft lens with suitable size and I immediately wore it. Before use soft lens had to be washed with cleansing liquid, but the one available in the shop was the different brand with the one I usually used at home. However, my eye was very sensitive and could not accept the liquid. When it touched my eye, it felt so painful like soap got into my eye. I screamed painfully and took off the soft lens, I rinse my eye with water, but my eye still hurt and very red. I tried to cure it with eye drop for light irritation but my eye could not stop tearing instead. After a few hours, the left part of my face became numb because of horrible pain. At 8 pm I almost decided to cancel serving with tambourine, but I remembered for the last few days my parents kept saying, “If you are loyal in serving God, your life is guaranteed” and at last I was strengthened to keep serving. I prayed that God would heal me and I could serve and give the best. But the pain became even more.
A moment before performed on stage I cried, I remembered this 1 year I was indeed lack of commitment in the ministry, often got careless and not being discipline. But why when I repent and wholeheartedly serve, my eye is this painful? Then I asked begged for forgiveness. After the serving, my eye became more painful. My friends advised me to go to UGD (Emergency Care) at nearby hospital but I kept hoping that God would be the one to heal me, then I joined the Closing Year sermon.
The next day when woke up, I was shocked and the first thing I did hysterically screamed calling my parents because my left eyelid could not be opened (a bump), I thought I was blind. But after being calmed down by my parents, we prayed together. Unfortunately that day was a day-off, no eye specialist opened. In the end I just closed my left eye with cloth bandage to avoid bacteria and close the bump.
God permitted that day for me to take a lot of rest and meditate, fully hoping to God. On the evening of the 1st, I removed the bandage. My eye could be slightly opened because the bump had gotten smaller. But my eyen still felt painful. When my little brother/sister saw it and said, “Last night I had a dream that your eye is healed up.” I catch that word, I said amen.
On the morning of the 2nd when I woke up, miracle happened. My left eye is perfectly healed. No pain, even the eye is clear and the bump was gone. I praise the Lord and I promised to testify for God’s greatness. Previously I have experienced irritation because of soft lens too, just lightly and no pain at all but required 4 days to healed up. Now God show His miracle with a worse irritation but healed up faster and without any medicine.
When we are willing to be loyal and fully submit to God, God never put us in shame. He has already served us, let us serve God as a gratitude to repay His love, not as a burden.